Merlin - Where We Stood

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Title: Where We Stood
Author: sgmajorshipper
Rating: PG
Characters/Pairings: Merlin/Morgana
Spoilers/Warnings: All the way up to 3x03. First person POV?
Disclaimer: Nothing is mine, I'm just playing around with the people.
Words: 417
Genre: Angst, Character study,
Summary: You died and I alone held the blame. Merlin considers his relationship with Morgana
Author’s notes: This idea has been rattling around in my head for a while, since S3 premiered, and I just found the muse to write it. I'm a bit out of practice, so I hope this is good.

I watched you walk the cliff...

I watched you walk the cliff, unafraid of where you stood, scared of only the hate pressing you forward. Mist swirled around our feet as I tried to coax you back to safety, away from the madness and evil, and even thought I would never admit it, to me. Rocks fell away from your feet, and still you hesitated, afraid to take my hand but unwilling to fall.

The spell was broken when I looked away, and silently you faded into the fog, falling away from me. You were gone and yet I still killed you, and it hurt.

I thought of when the cliff had been nothing but a vague outline in the distance, when you and I could have been something and I was more than just another servant. The day we were equal and nothing could have broken us apart. Once, we were young and invincible.

And then it came and you drifted to the mesmerizing edge. Stopping you from standing on the there was trying to stop the wind from pushing us apart, and it was impossible.

The rocks tumbled away from where you had stood, and I grasped at the edge, hoping to find fingers and hands to pull to safety, knowing there would be none. You died and I alone held the blame.



But that was not enough. Because you came back, and I knew you had not fallen, but stepped across the abyss to the other side. We stood on opposing sides of the chasm and I begged you to come back, to end this.

And your words made me wish that I had tried so much harder to save you when I had the chance.

Now, every day, when you see me, the space between us two stretches on into eternity, and I know this gaping tear will never, ever heal. Our war will wage forever forward, until the day one of us is gone and the other is left alone. In my heart I know how this will end, for we have always been each other’s undoing. You watch as they drag me off and you smile, thinking I will finally die and your problems will be solved.

I look at you and know it hurts because we could have had something that changed the world…and now we are destined to change it in all the wrong ways.

I kick pebbles over the edge and try not to think of how I loved you, once upon a time.

@темы: Merlin\Morgana, фанфик, Merlin